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mood : ‘S alright. listening to : Supertramp – “The Logical Song”

Well, I finally got around to writing in this thing again. Hee. It’s not that I don’t have anything to say (well, okay, it is a little), but it’s just making myself sit down to do it. I wish this chair would spin. I don’t sit still very well, so a spinning-chair would help. That’s this week’s excuse.

Happy birthday to Eric! You’re eighteen and everything. Geez. Whenever Advent Children comes in the mail (thank you, Britt!), I’m hoping that maybe Eric, Judy, and I can sit down and watch it together. I’m really looking forward to watching it. *fidgets in chair*

I’m feeling better than I have in a long time. It’s like all that stress that I’ve been having for the past year or so just…disappeared. I’m not sure what happened. However, looking back on my life thus far, I’ve noticed a strange pattern that helps to explain it. It seems that every four years I go through this weird stage where I am simply not myself. At all. It lasts a while, then poof! It’s over. I have no idea why it happens. I’m just glad that it’s behind me for now. I’m not expecting another spell until my early-twenties, if it happens again. I’m going to work to avoid it now that I can see it coming. Thanks to everyone for putting up with me. Now I’m back to my typical insane self. Yee.

I’m also expecting artness from EK in the mail, which is just awesome. Between Advent Children, artness, and this month’s GameInformer, I’m practically attacking the mailbox daily. Maiiil.

School is still annoying, but I’m just going with it. I was voted class president, which surprised me to no end. o_O I’m glad that people think me responsible. Wow, they’re in for a surprise. The job seems to be very…random. People have just been throwing papers at me, giving me a brief description of what I’m supposed to do, and then running off before I can get a word in. *blink*

College work has smoothed out now that I’ve developed a “just get on with it” attitude towards my papers and such. I finished up the rough draft for a genetics paper yesterday and did another writing assignment shortly before writing this. Now I just have to study for the first Government exam. Eee. I’m not worried about it, though. I’m keeping up with everything.

I like physics, though we’re still going over general science stuff. Like writing up lab reports. I’ve never written a lab report before, so I suppose it’s a good thing that I’m learning now. We’re working with termites, which strikes me as something that should be done in biology rather than physics, but whatever. It’s amusing. We keep accidentally damaging them, and I have to perform euthanasia on them. I just click my mechanical pencil a few times and stab them in the head. It’s the decent thing to do when half of their body is crushed.

It seems that even though I’m going to sleep at a decent hour every night, I’m still really tired. I’m guessing that I’m not getting good quality sleep, and wondering what I can do about that. Hm. I take naps after school because I’m exhausted. I even sleep through the first fifteen minutes of Calculus because I’m tired and we aren’t doing anything during that time anyway. Meh. I’m hoping that the lower stress levels will help with that. At least I’m not gritting my teeth at night anymore.

Oh, before I forget:

1. Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/film reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavour of jelly to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal.

Hit me.

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*blink*

What an interesting month August is turning out to be. Let’s see what’s happened so far. Happy birthday to Judy! Now you’re seventeen like I am. What fun. We went on vacation down in Galveston, which turned out to be amusing. I took Judy along and Lori brought one of her friends. Unfortunately, it wound up being the most annoying of her friends, but we managed.

I tried chocolate-covered espresso beans for the first time while vacationing. At first, they tasted not so good, but the funny thing about them is that you want another one anyway. Then they just start tasting better. Too bad I learned the hard way not to eat too many. I wound up with a horrible migraine later that evening, so…it kind of ruined that night. Stupid caffeine. Judy felt bad for me and rubbed my feet. I feel I should pay her or something, because she really knows what she’s doing. ^_^

I made a Hojo ID badge because I wanna use it to cosplay him someday…and I have no life whatsoever. Heh. Thanks goes to Britt for letting me use her card as a base. Photoshop is my friend. I also made Icca a Reeve badge because she wanted one. X3

People have also been giving me random stuff. I love you guys. First of all, I got the original cast recording of The Phantom of the Opera from Lauren. I squee in delight, for it’s just…wow. I’m already plotting out something to send back to her. Meghan decided to share Warcraft goodness with me and bought Warcraft II for the Playstation for me. It’s just like the computer version, really. I’ve been playing it lately, and I’m highly amused. I’m getting to the tougher levels, and so now I actually have to use strategy. Drat. Judy picked up the main bit of my birthday present recently—an iTrip. Heh heh. I now control the radio with my iPod mini. This will make the drive to school much more tolerable, I’m sure. Lori controls the radio on the way home. x_x I can only stand rap music for so long. And yet, all of this makes me happy.

This is what doesn’t make me happy. My parents have decided that they’ve been wrong in their ways and must correct their children before they grow up to be heathens or something to that extent. *groan* Last year I was supposed to be in my room by 10:30. Okay. I was expecting the same for this year, but apparently 10:30 is too late for a seventeen year old to stay up. A sixteen/fifteen year old? Sure! A seventeen year old? God forbid.

Of course this is only on school nights. I felt a bit better about that. I always look forward to the weekends! But…wait…how could they let their juvenile children stay up after midnight? …Or eleven for that matter? That’s right, on Saturday, I’m expected to be in my room with the lights out by eleven. Last year, it was midnight at the least. Why are these people going backwards?! I’m getting older, not younger! GAH. At least Friday is still sacred. Sort of.

So I stayed quiet while mom was laying down the rules. Both of my parents just had this look about them like, “Go ahead, say something! We’d love an excuse to make it worse for you!” So Lori brought up that ten and eleven’s a bit early. I knew she’d say something sooner or later. This is when they felt the need to put their foot down and thus threatened, not for the first time, that if we break these rules then our bedroom doors are coming off so that they can make sure we’re in our rooms, lights out, and we’re sleeping peacefully.

Only roughly 285 more days until I’ve graduated and I’m able to move out. I can’t wait. This is getting ridiculous. Lori and I aren’t bad kids. Why punish us? We aren’t doing anything wrong. *sigh* Sometimes I wish that they would’ve had one “bad” kid so that they could appreciate that we aren’t troublemakers. But whatever. It was really lovely to wake up at bloody 7:30 am to clean the house. It’s the sort of thing that mom and dad would like to see us do every morning like good little mindless children. Help me.

What does this mean for my internet times? I can now be found online anywhere from 8-10 pm central time, but it’s more likely that I’ll be on around nine because I have to keep the kitchen clean, and we don’t eat until 7:30/8. On Saturday, it’s essentially the same. I’ll be on from 8 or 9 until 11. Friday is the only night I can stay up until midnight or so. I just hope I can get all of my business taken care of. I’ll try to keep up with role-plays and such. Really. I just…doubt that I’ll be able to be as active as I was. And that disappoints me.

I wish my parents understood me. Even just a little. Alas, and all that jazz.

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Is everybody in...?

mood : 's good listening to : gorillaz - "feel good inc."

So. It's 5 AM here. Good morning!

Anyways, I do like playing with my sleep schedule, which is why I'm wide-awake at 5 AM. I woke up three hours ago, you see. I've had breakfast, watched a movie, made an icon... All before the sun rises. I'm the most productive at night, it seems. Daylight seems to sap my energy. Meh. So, I went to sleep at about 9 PM and left the light on. This assures that I won't sleep all night. With the light on, it is guaranteed that I will wake up naturally about once every three hours. As predicted, I woke up around midnight, then once again at two. I decided to get up then. Heh. I took a shower, woke up, and now I feel great and ready to start the day. This should make Mom and Dad happy anyways. They grounded me because I didn't get up, right? Now I'm up even before they are. Mwah ha.

Maybe I can integrate this type of sleep schedule into the school year. It would at least assure that I was awake for the morning college classes. *nods* If my parents would let me, I'd go to sleep as soon as I got home from school, wake up at about nine or nine-thirty, do a few random things, hop on the internet for a while, then work on school work or whatever else until it was time to leave for school again. Hee. I would like that. A shame my parents would never let that work. Bleh.

Hmm. So, I've had this on my mind for a while. I remember Lauren doing this in her blog, and I rather liked it, so I think I'll do this here. Essentially, I'm going to acknowledge those who have made a difference in my life, even if it's as simple as cheering me up through a chat. Heh. So, here goes...

Judy - There really is a lot that I can say here; you're my best friend, after all. You've put up with me through my ups and downs for six years now, and that's quite a long time. Heh. You even stuck by me when I treated you like you didn't exist, and...well, words can't express how grateful I am for that. I'm sorry for all that I've put you through. It's good to know that after all these years, things are finally starting to smooth out and get better. For both of us. I'm sure that you'll go far in life. Your passion for what you love is truly admirable.

Eric - Oh boy. Eric? I can say quite a bit about you too. I will say, first of all, that I've never bonded so quickly and firmly with someone as I did with you. Ever. Your personality affected me in ways that are difficult to describe. For example, you taught me how to be open-minded to practically everything. The phrase you used to say, "Well, that's your opinion, and I respect that" still sticks with me. You taught me how to love all people for who they are, regardless of circumstance. Also, since you were always moving around, I learned patience. I never knew where you were and had to have faith that you'd remember my bloody phone number. Heh. Even when you were up in Maine, or in the hospital... Even after six months would pass without hearing from you.

Meghan - You don't have the title "mentor" for nothing. I've been learning from you even before I e-mailed you. I'm still surprised at how everything worked out. You revived my desire to draw and inspired me to write. ...You know what? I owe my artistic side to you. You encouraged it, after all. At home? What do my parents care for art? They want me to be a doctor and doctors don't have time for such frivolous things. True, I've always had my artistic side, but you poured life into it. Hee. Isn't that what you like to do? Inspire people? Well, you've certainly done an excellent job with me, eh? You're also a great friend. Who would've thought?

Jenna - You're one of the most encouraging people I know, and you can always think of something to say to cheer someone up. It's too bad we don't talk as much as we used to. I hope you're doing well. I'll have to check up on you, I suppose.

Lauren - Nerd pride. I rarely talk to others our age on the net, and I feel close to you because we go through the same sorts of things due to being in the same stages of life. I remember first meeting you through the Neko back in 10th grade, and here we are. Seniors. Heh. You're one of the most intelligent people I know, and it makes me gleeful to have you as a friend. However, we don't communicate as we used to. Things get busy, I guess. Perhaps that can change in the future? We'll see.

Pofo - Synonymous with "awesome". You're another one of my Neko buddies, even though I don't frequent the forum like I used to. You've always had a positive attitude and lots of encouraging things to say; that's hard to find these days. You've even gone out of your way to cheer people up. Hence, you = awesome.

Rene - See, I had always wanted a reason to e-mail you other than to just squee over Hojo, so I waited for four years. ...Only to get a Hojo plushie and wind up squeeing anyways. Life is funny like that. Anyways, I've been able to get to know you a bit over the past few months, and I'm rather happy that I've had the opportunity. You're a quiet, highly intriguing person, and I feel I connect with you on a level that's a bit different than with others, despite the age difference. I'm finding myself looking up to you more as time passes. As you say, you're "evidence that it does get better". This is good. I needed evidence.

Britt - Well, you're the first person to ever hunt me down and contact me about my artwork, so you were special from the start. Beyond that, your attitude towards things tends to always put a smile on my face. RPing with you is always amusing, and I always look forward to the weekends whenever you pop on the net. Your random phone calls are always a surprise, and a welcome one at that. The subscription to DA really threw me over the top last weekend. That was a wonderful surprise. Thank you so much. I'll have to do something special. Hee.

Icca - We haven't been talking long, but you're always great fun to chat with about practically any topic. You've kept me awake for hours when I should be asleep. But don't worry, you're still a good influence. Hee. Hope to keep chatting with you. You're great fun.

Annnd, that about wraps it up. Others I could've mentioned would include Professor Schorlemmer, Jenny, and Caroline for starters, but they weren't excluded because they haven't done as much for me. No, it just seems like those mentioned above have played an important role in my life over the past year or so. Heh.

I feel better to have typed that up. *nods* The sun's risen by now, and everyone's awake except Lori. She's so lazy.

Well, there are things to be done today. I need to finish up Elian plushie for one. Yee. I need a sewing machine. Hand-stitching the entire bugger was annoying at times. For you, Meghan! All this pain and frustration for you! Heh.

Oh. As of last night, I was dubbed the new techie for the church. Go me.

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